Surround me in books & words–
sitting in the nerve center, drowning,
not drinking
I am besieged on all sides
I look into the gaping maw of me and see me,
looking back
I was born here, I will die here
A rocket ship to nowhere
Rhinoplasty train wreck apology
Nauseated sea sick punch drunk bastard
I stick up my head to see who says hello
I lie down, eyes roll back
I’m sorry, she says, always sorry
I look–it’s blue, the sky
open for me–look this way and say hello, she says,
I’m sorry anyway